Sunday, February 27, 2011

What do you do when you've been in love with someone for 11 years?

No it's not the kind of love that you think I am talking about. It's a love that is not reciprocated. I am in love with my best friend. I have been friends with him since I was 15. He has no idea how I feel and he also will NEVER find out. So my life is a living hell. I try to move on from him and date other people. It doesn't help. I maintain a somewhat active intimate life with men. But yet nothing or no one takes the place of who stays in my heart.

It's so painful to see him date other women. It's painful to hear him talk about the women that he meets. And it is excruciating to offer him advice when a girl breaks his heart. How do I offer him advice when all I want to do is scream at him "I am the one for you! Forget all of those girls. I will never break your heart. I will love you forever!" But I don't. I just keep a smile on my face and maintain my buddy status. A status that will remain with me until all eternity. If he hasn't felt the spark in 11 years he definately won't anytime soon. So any advice for me out there? Any way I can get over him? Please help me. I need to move on.